Finally

a real entry. I've been so lost in life and been so lazy with it as well that i haven't been keeping up on my duties that are to entertain you. Christmas was Christmas, however not really the same this year. Sure there was the tree and the cookies and the no snow because apparently New Jersey isn't capable of producing that anymore, but it was spent with my friends, who I've come to realize are my family as cheesy as that may sound. I enjoyed it though, even though there was cheap alcohol, there was good company and some even better Cali medical weed. haha it was the most clear high I've ever experienced, and also my last for a long, long time which brings us into New Years.
New Years is never as good as its portrayed to be, its always disappointing and I've come to realize no one can party like my old group of friends. Which sucks, but in the end thats why they are my old group of friends. I gave up all drinking and all drugs until my debt is payed off which shouldn't be to long, however its a good start to get me into a new phase of life and to help speed up growing up. Alcoholism runs in my family and my real father was a meth/crank/opiate addict so i should have seen the signs a long time ago that i would get sucked into this scene as well, and i can say although its hard I'm glad I'm finally cleaning my act up. No, I've never done any of those drugs, but you get the gist of what I'm trying to say.
So i completely messed my ankle up and i'm not sure whats wrong with it theres some swelling and a whole lot of bruising but i just ice it and keep on going on with my day who has time to be down when with a sore ankle when you the best years of your life to live. Which also brings me to another topic, Punta Cana.
Holla, whats up Dominican Republic, i will be visiting you for a week in the month of may with a couple friends for some relaxation and some fun. I've never been out of the country, i need to get a passport, I've only been on a plane once, as well as vacation and both were senior trip to Florida. I have no time to gain my winter weight because who wants to see a chubby Monica on the beaches, i know i don't so I'm pretty sure you feel the same.
It's weird trying to get my life together because I'm such an indecisive person that I've finally decided i want to mature, and grow up, get an education and all that jazz but i have no clue what i want to do, i know things that i do well, and i know things i enjoy, but i don't know if i want to take away the enjoyment of those and what not that comes with doing the same thing everyday. One thing i have figured out is whatever i do i want to learn everyday, I'm a smart girl and I've been wasting it for the past 21 years using excuses because I'm lazy, or because i want to party. This is going to loose me a lot of friends, and its not even the case of oh well i want to better my life and leave you all in the dust but more of a i need to do it for myself and i need you all to understand this. When i turn you down to go to the bar please don't say "This is the year you turn 21 and you don't wanna go out?!?" That's right, i said no and respect it. I need to get into a habit of not depending on alcohol and drugs to have fun or to take up my time when I'm bored.
I have started to paint again though and i did get a new digital camera for Christmas so maybe I'll take some pictures of some of my more recent work to show you.
As I'm looking at all the red lines under my misspelled words and poor grammar it seems they are all lower cased versions of "I'm" or "I've" and you should tell me to quit talking about myself so much. however I'm pretty sure this is my blog and I'm entitled to doing so.
It's not even 10pm yet and i feel like and old woman, I'm freezing being anemic is a huge no beuno. I saw these gloves they had online that you wear while typing so one's hands don't get all ice cold, i should probably invest in some before i get frostbite..... I should probably being doing a lot of things though. Anyway, this was a usless entry but I've been getting tons of AIM messages telling me I'm slacking, so there you go, a real entry. Hope you enjoyed, hope i wasn't too boring, and i hope it was bearable to read because I'm not going to proof read this. I'll attach some pictures from over the break for you're visual stimulation, please no jerking off.